Gonna Be Okay
Official Audio
Lyrics
Hey, I wanna introduce you to my mind
It's a place with some relatable things to find
With all the doubts I have and the fears on ground
The love I feel, I want to scream it out loud
But hey, it's gonna be okay
When the day starts, I don't know where I'll be
Will it be good for my heart, or will the tension take me?
It'll always end with me cursing my imperfection
For making it worse by not taking action
So just hate me, berate me, or I could even ask please date me
And not gonna lie, that would make my head free
But until then, I'll just go through my day
'Cause hey, it's gonna be okay
Hey, I wanna introduce you to my mind
It's a place with many secrets you can find
With all the doubts I have and the fears on ground
The love I feel, I want to scream it out loud
But hey, it's gonna be okay
A lot of times, my mouth shuts off
And I find myself getting lost in thoughts
I ask myself what I could have done better
And if the words I said, could've upset her
I feel so dumb, such scum, and all these worries make me numb
But in the end it's always her for who I long
But until then, I'll just go through my day
'Cause hey, it's gonna be okay
Hey, I wanna introduce you to my mind
It's a place with all the answers you can find
About all my doubts and the fears on ground
The love I feel, I want to scream it out loud
But hey, it's gonna be okay
I've been shattered by so many tries
And now I see my life flashing before my eyes
But still I'll get up and I will take hold
'Cause I want to see how this crossroad unfolds
So just take me, awake me, make me, shape me
Shape me in the person who I truly can be
As long as its you with who I stay
I'm sure I'll truly be okay
Hey, I wanna introduce you to my mind
It's a place with all the truth you'll find
About all my doubts and the fears on ground
The love I feel, I want to scream it out loud
But hey, it's gonna be okay
Origin
Just before Christmas Eve, I was simply sitting around playing guitar. I ended up playing some different chords that sounded pretty good together and that's how I came up with the concept for a new song, which would then constitute my 24th project of 2021, a milestone I wanted to reach in part once I noticed I was almost at the two tracks per month mark.
As I came up with the instrumental chorus on the guitar I was already 100% sure I wanted to start it with "Hey, I want to introduce you to my mind," it just sounded perfect for that. So that was the basis for the whole song.
On Christmas Day, I continued thinking about the lyrics, which turned out to be very difficult. In fact, I wanted to make the new song a very relatable song, one that people could find themselves in, but I found it very difficult to combine with the core of the song. In the end, I decided to just express the thoughts I often struggle with in a song. Just like with Chains actually.
So the song is basically me singing about my thoughts right now. So a piece from my head and heart, no further special meaning, just my thoughts of now in a song.
Okay, certainly there are still quite a few references in the song. Starting with:
"With all the doubts I have and the fears on ground
The love I feel, I want to scream it out loud"
Which is sort of a reference to Chains, as well as
"For making it worse by not taking action"
Maybe it's more that the thoughts I had when I wrote Chains, and wrote this song were pretty similar. My passivity has been and continues to be a major hindrance for me, so I end up feeling bad every time because I simply don't dare do things. But more on that later.
"Hey, I wanna introduce you to my mind
It's a place with all the answers you can find"
This is the 3rd refrain, but contains a clear reference to Answers ("All the answers now in my mind").
"I've been shattered by so many tries
And now I see my life flashing before my eyes"
This was actually inspired by one of my favorite songs from 2021, which also inspired a great lyric section for Crossroads, Die For You, which sings:
"What do you see before it's over? Blinding flashes getting closer" which obviously marks the potential end of one's life.
"But still I'll get up and I will take hold
'Cause I want to see how this crossroad unfolds"
In case it's not clear enough yet, this is a super bad reference to Crossroads. By Crossroads itself, January is meant. What path will be taken? What is the outcome?
I rise again because I am curious about the outcome of this Crossroads.
"Hey, I wanna introduce you to my mind
It's a place with all the truth you'll find"
And this, of course, is a reference to album number six, Truth.
But in the end, the song continues to express my current thoughts in the song.Â